Is there something wrong that the word “blue” makes me think of sadness? “The blues” Feeling melancholy… For some of you out there, the fight to stay out of the blues has never been a problem. If you are someone like me, though, it can sometimes be a daily, hourly, minute-by-minute thing. And I don’t like to admit that. It feels weak. I want to be strong. In fact, in many ways, I am strong. I keep going, keep laughing, keep hugging, kissing boo boos, listening to dreams, doing the dishes and the laundry, the dusting and the sweeping. There are so many moments I enjoy in this beautiful life. But I also realize, as my sister says, that I want “sunshine and rainbows” all the time. I’d rather the house stayed perfect, nothing ever went wrong, nothing broke…I think you know what I mean. But this life here is not like that and my impatience with it only heightens my longing for heaven.
Above is the paragraph I accomplished in five minutes of blogging – what I’d like to add is this: I feel the struggle some of us go through to maintain joy on a daily basis is still a taboo topic in today’s Church. That the church teaches Christians aren’t supposed to struggle this way. That it is even a matter of sin. But I’ve come to realize there is no “sin” in the feelings – but the sin would be to not daily bring them before the Lord and continue to search for His grace and joy in each moment. The sin would even be in not sharing about this struggle and allowing others to come alongside in prayer and friendship. To clarify, I’m not talking here about deep depression, just a general “glass is half-empty” outlook on life, its so hard to put the feeling into words – maybe an unsettled, anxious, sad-ish type feeling that seems to swirl around the outskirts of my mind most of the time? I’m the person who tends to be anxious and worried? If you know someone like this, give them some encouragement today!
This post was written in response to a “Five Minute Friday” writing challenge on Kate Motaung’s blog. If you want to check it out and join, click here. Thanks for reading, and have a great weekend!